Dear Reader, Very probably you have never read anything like this book. But you just may know someone like this author. Could even be yourself, I don’t know. What I do know is that we all have the same spirit in us. We all need love, kindness, compassion and a steady hand to guide us. Without those things in our lives, from the beginning, life is a very dangerous and scary place. The author uses a pen name not because she is hiding, but because she is not. It is her tribute to the strong women who ultimately tethered her to a world of love and courage, one she can experience now more often than ever before. One that she doesn’t take for granted, not one single day. And because the road has been long, she’s written the book in a series. This is Book One–the beginning of the journey. It is her fervent hope that her words will help a parent to recognize a child in distress, or a child to realize the path being contemplated is not a good one to take. She hopes to be an instrument of healing and hope, by exposing her own pain, struggles and hopelessness. Yes, the story is told by an addict who was also once an active member of the drug trade. A junkie, she says. We have disagreed about her use of that word. She uses it because she won’t pretty up her mistakes and bad judgements; won’t hide from the implications of the word. It is what she was; someone hopelessly hooked on drugs that ran her life. But my argument is that she’s now a recovering addict. I know something about the world of addiction and alcoholism: I had to be “dried out” when I was born. Addicts and alcoholics who cease using their drug are always in “recovery” but not “cured.” People in recovery address their lives every moment, without partaking of their poison. And people stay in recovery mode by sharing their journey and helping others along the way. So, that’s why I argue that the author is no longer a “junkie.” And she’s committed to not skating on the issue.  And since she’s the author, she wins. Please read these words with a generous spirit and let them work for you. Or, someone you know. She might educate you, scare you, comfort you or make you laugh. But I do know that her words will touch you and maybe even change you, too. They sure did all those things for me. The Editor

Marketing Bytes for Writers

Words of wisdom no doubt!
But can I do all that…?
Challenge accepted.

Words Count

FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!One of the very most important things about being successful with your book sales is that you MUST have a terrific book: well written, well edited with a dynamic, professionally designed book cover. No matter how much money or time you throw at your book marketing, if you don’t have these elements, it’s not going to go anywhere outside of your personal sphere of family and friends.

If you DO have that great book ready to go, however, there’s more to learn about publicity and book marketing that we have years to discuss it. But, I think these are worth noting! Always remember to stay within your budget; in terms of time and money.

And, marketing yourself and your books takes time. A restaurant business isn’t successful overnight. Neither is any other kind of business. Writing is not different. Be willing to plan your campaign for 6-12 months at a…

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Six common lies all addicts eventually tell themselves and you..

When you have a serious substance use disorder, life becomes a game of survival. Each and every day is dedicated to avoiding withdrawals and hiding the outward signs of chemical dependency from friends, family and co-workers.

On top of that, feeding an addiction means developing an arsenal of psychological defense mechanisms. People struggling with addiction have to learn how to shield themselves from the reality of their behaviors.

Whether you label these defense mechanisms excuses or lies, it all boils down to rationalizing the addiction. And believe it or not, addicts lie to themselves more than anyone else.

When your actions have tainted everything you once held dear, yet you continue participating in that pattern of destruction, lying to yourself essentially becomes the path of least resistance.

Lie #1: I don’t care about my life and I don’t care if my addiction kills me.

It’s a sad, low point when an addict believes that life is meaningless. They are so consumed with pain and grief that the depression seems to justify the rampant substance abuse.

This is a vicious cycle: the more they use, the worse they feel. If only they could realize that abusing drugs and/or alcohol is the largest barrier that holds them back from discovering a meaningful existence.

Lie #2: I’m in control of my substance use. I can stop whenever I want to.

Control is a big deal for most addicts. This statement allows them to feel like they’re still calling the shots in life; they don’t want to admit they’re chained to their drug(s) of choice.

Deep down, most addicts are desperately searching for some kind of justification and – if they can just convince themselves that addiction is a personal choice – it almost feels like they’re in control.

Lie #3: I would never be able to manage my problems without drugs or alcohol.

When you’re struggling with addiction, even the smallest life problems can become amplified. Everyone has issues, but addicts convince themselves there’s no way to survive without self-medicating. What they don’t realize is that substance abuse makes things worse, and addiction is likely causing a majority of their problems.

By living this lie, addicts can feel as if their substance abuse is somehow warranted. It allows them to justify being stuck in a drug-fueled rut.

Lie #4: I’m nothing like Johnny. He’s in bad shape and he definitely needs help.

Addicts like to compare themselves to other addicts as a way to gauge their level of substance abuse. They’ll say things like “Johnny got busted for two DUIs last year, but I never get behind the wheel when I’m wasted.”

As long as there is someone out there who’s much worse off, it’s easy to feel superior and justify your less-severe addictive behaviors. The twisted comparison is really just a foreshadow of what may happen if the addict doesn’t get professional help, and soon.

Lie #5: My addiction doesn’t affect anyone else.

This is probably the most universal lie among addicts. Despite seeing pain and confusion on the faces of loved ones, it’s easier to deny that reality. Instead, they see friends and family members as enemies, constantly judging and trying to dictate their path in life. They confuse concern with control and often respond with, “If I want to do drugs, then that’s what I’m going to do, and you can’t stop me.” This lie represents the selfishness that plays such a large role in addiction.

Lie #6: Life without drugs and alcohol is boring. Life is too short to be sober!

Giving up your drug(s) of choice in pursuit of a healthy, sober lifestyle can be very scary for addicts. The process includes finding new hobbies, new friends, new ways to celebrate, and new ways to relax. Just because you’re sober doesn’t mean the party has to stop.

This common lie comes from a place of fear. Many addicts have never known a social life, or a sex life, without drugs in the equation. The sobering truth is, life will be too short if you don’t end or greatly reduce your substance abuse.






“Each of us is put here in this time and this place to personally decide the future of human-kind.

Did you think you were put here for something else?”

Chief Arvol Looking Horse

Why I Do This . . .?

If you really want to know how to build a secure Internet business, consult a hacker. If you really want to know how to build a security system, consult a thief. If you really want to know how to help an addict, well, you get the idea.

The vision for MEDICINE is to build a unique bridge – and build it on the back of mistakes. Every child left behind because a parent is – in corrections on a drug related crime, or left behind due to a drug related death, or maybe, they were simply left behind because of – drugs.

MEDICINE is about the “spiritual energy” of educators, targeting children between the ages of 5 and 21. Arming these “left behind” children with one of the only things that is theirs and theirs alone: education.

We are challenging the world’s strongest educators–anyone capable of dreaming, educators in any viable arena, to join in this mission. But most importantly, to not only provide guidance and security as our Board of Directors, but to help launch these children from the streets where they were abandoned – into global careers.

We dream to provide councilors and life coaches–to really break the cycle, while mom or dad are gone to corrections and addictions, because who knows how many years the parent or parents will be absent? Our mission is to: BREAK THE CYCLE.

In my opinion, it’s the only shot that we, as a society, has. To help all to embrace the path that brought them to MEDICINE. It really doesn’t have to be a mistake; it can be an opportunity in disguise. We all can have control over our behavior and our destinies. AND that is what we want to enable.

We are currently targeting our “nonprofit” status and the purchase of property located on Justice Lane to use for a base of operations.



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[Until the Foundation receives official 501 (3) (c) status, donations are not considered tax deductible. The funds are appreciated and will be put aside for foundation use only.]


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